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~Lub~
~Sweets
~Lollipop
~Chocolate
~208
~Baby-pink,Baby-blue,White and Black
~Soft toys
~CURRY!
~Soft drinks
~Any animal
~Death Note, Death Note 2, L change the world
~阿緯 A WEI FROM LOLLIPOP!
~Evan Yo
~L Lawliet
~Lollipop
~Danny and Naruto(they r cute)

Hate
/Barney
/let ppl take photo of me
/let ppl see my art works
/backstabber
/scoldings
/ppl that hurtz me
/stupid prefume
/lags
/makeups
/FAILING MY O LEVEL!

Wishes

~PSP
~RELAXING HOLIDAY!
~LAMBO!
~LOLLIPOP de new album
~MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~More soft toys
~More DS game
~Pass O LEVEL!
~SLEEP!!
~LOLLIPOP de concert DVD/VCD
~Finish Coursework
~A CRANE MACHINE!(So I can put all my toys in there and catch myself at home!)
~LOLLIPOP COME SG AND I HAVE A CHANCE TO MEET THEM

Movie wanna watch

$Meet Dave
$Journey To The Center Of The Earth
$Ice Age 3
$10 Promises To My Dog
$Gt a wei de movie!
(anyone can treat me?)

History

Leavin?

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A WEI's Woo blog♥♥♥
Cass♥♥
Dap♥♥
Xiu bin♥♥
Reid♥
Shu hui♥
Shi min♥
Wilson♥
Leon♥
Elysia♥
Kat♥
Bibi♥
Shazana♥
Ka Sheng♥
Friendster

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Music

Lazy put...

Sad..

July 21, 2009 Hearted @ 10:12 PM

Feeling So SAD!!!
SO EMPTY!
Feel like crying...

Are the frens that I m having now really frens to me?
Or are they just someone to entertain me when I m bored then find others to entertain after they finish entertaining me?
Do they really treat me as a fren or a person to entertain?
Do they see my negative points faster than my positive points?
Are they making me happy or sad?
Do they think me as a person hu can share secrets wif or just a person hu is irritating?
Do they think I m taking advantage of them or just helping me?
When it is my birthday, do they buy me present bcos it is my birthday and just wanna give me a present as a return bcos on their birthday I bought them things?
Or do they just wanna make me happy on that special day?
Do I really nidda act in fornt of them?
Can I show my real self?
When I m happy no one care, but when I m emo y do they care?
When I m there, y dun they wanna tok to me?
And when I m sick or absent, y do they sms me and asked me y I m not there?
Do they take me for granted?
M I funny and happy bcos of them or bcos of other things?
M I entertaining them when they nidda it?
Wat have I've done?
Wat did I said?
If I dun follow wat they are tokin abt, y do I get left out?
Arethey just taking advantage of me?
TOO MANY QUESTION!

Let's now give some examples..
A- She had all the same subject as me..
When I asked her the homework, she will always tell me..
But when I dun tok to her.. She will not tok to me until we tok abt skool things again..
If not, she will also tok to me when she have no one to follow her to somewhere..
But sometimes I've also asked her to follow me..
Then I have to see her mood.. If she is not bored, She wont follow me..
She is not so bad and she can keep secrets..

B- She is a classmate but not a fren..
She always asked me to follow her to where ever she wans to go..
But when I asked her to follow me, she will see whether where m I going..
If it is a place that she have no advantage then she wont go..
And she always asked me to help her ask someone else things..
But she get the reply instead of me...
I've tried to reject her and she gt a little angry after that..
She also have a bad mouth..
She always tell me all the gossips of others and tell others abt mine..
She will always get the advantage..
If I nv tok to her, she also wont tok to me until she have a question..
If no question, she will just show a black face..

C- She is a classmate I've thie year..
She started to b good to me and close to me at first..
But now when she got mixed wif the class..
She is like the attention of the class and she had another group of frens to hang out wif..
But when the frens are gone, she will come back and find me and tok to me..
And she will always asked a question :"Y u today so quiet?"
Then she is sitting beside me.. So everytime she will tok to me during lessons..
Last time I feel sick, I told her I dun wanna go skool..
Then she said:" If u nv come skool then hu will pei wo?"
Then I gave her examples and she will keep saying this wif this, that wif that..
Then she will always wan me to go to skool.. But she will go wif the this and that..
Then she will left me alone.. I really dun feel like I m ur NO.1 anymore..
She will also put her bag and things on my table..

These are some of the examples.. HAIX!!!
I really feel so tired..
I duno whether wanna go to skool anot..
I dun feel liek going to skool anymore...
Cos going skool is just studying and more studying and more stress..
No chatting, frens, fun and relaxing anymore...
I found that my house is the best place I wanna b in..
When in skool I feel so left out and stress out..
When outside I feel so tired and just wanna go home..
And when I m home, I just wanna sleep and relax..
Now I m feeling sad, tired and stress..
Then I now feel like sleeping and dun wanna wake up..
And The last thing is that..
Since no one wans to read my blog then I will make it a memory for the times when I;ve lost my memory..
So if there is someone to read my blog I thank u!
Lastly, I m crying when I m typing even now..
I think I've lost the purpose of living..

Updating...

July 14, 2009 Hearted @ 11:00 PM

Y is my title "updating"?
Bcos I had stop blogging for a long time..
Since LAST YEAR OCT 10! Okay..
So this will be a long post!
I'll try to rmb wat happened during the period between Oct 10 till now...

Hmmmmm... Actually I passed my EYE for sec 3 then gt to sec 4E..

Then on my birthday I think I went to JP wif my mother..
And in the morning I went to PM and meet pei..
Pei gave me a box that looks like a cake.. Then inside gt another small cake..
The small cake she say is she sew herself de..(And wif some help from her mother)
Then I went to JP to play the crane!
Then I gt a "chip" pillow from my mother and I beg my brother to buy a tweety bird soft toy then in the end i gt 2 presents!
My father still owe me present! lol!

OH YA! On my father's birthday i rmb!
I gt some coupons for banana cake/marble cake/chocolate cake..
I gt it bcos a few of my cuz gt married and then they gt give free coupons!
So we went to take a banana cake then we deco it wif cream..
Then at nite we asked him to come back early to eat the cake..
Then we ate the cake but it tasted so weird so i oni ate 1 piece..
THE NEXT DAY!!! I M SICK!! I vomited and feel sick..
That's y i dun dare to make a cake.. OR dun dare to eat the cake that i have made..
I HAVE LEARN MY LESSON!

Then 31 Dec,It was guo bin's birthday and the last day of 2008...
Then on 11.50+pm I was smsing my cuz..
When the clock strikes 12! SMS JAM!!! I recieved my cuz sms at 12.04am!
She sent on 12.00 but i recieved it after 4 mins!
Then i also smsed guo bin happy birthday on 31 dec..

Then during chinese new year..
I gt abt $100+ for my red packet money..
And i wished HIM a happy chinese new year.. And told him that i like him..
Then he replied me abt 1 month later..
He said that 'it is not the right time to b together..
He wanna concentrate on studies..'
So I waited...
THEN! during june holiday! HE told me that he last time sent a wrong message..
Actually the message should b 'I dun wan a stead right now'
But I m not sad cos after he sent me then pervious messages..
I m prepared that he will not like me.. But I still waited...
Me and fel bought him a cap which have his fav colour..
Then now he keep wearing it.. (so happy he likes it)
Then happy he's happy now..
OKAY!! Enuff of HIM!

SEC 4 IS A STRESSFUL YEAR!
Y do I say that?
Bcos every teachers will say U MUST GET A FOR THIS SUBJECT!!
Then during the holidays, IT IS NOT A HOLIDAY!
March holidays went to skool almost every day..
June holidays went to skool the first and last week..
Then now Art still havne do finish..
Still haven start revision!
CA coming.. Rememdial lessons on every day until 5.30pm!
Homework are like hills.. Soon it will b mountain..
STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!!

MAIN POINT! My feeling now...
I feel so angry, sad, 烦 and tired!

Angry bcos my bro gt blog i also duno!
And my com is brand new! BUT! The screen gt problem liao!
And two boys in my skool think i not fierce then keep taking advantage of me..
Shar keep kiking me then beating me..
Then i today hit him back at his back hardly!
Les sits in fornt of me during SS lesson, he always give me the spoiled paper or worksheets..
Then i ytd hit him on the back wif the paper then say U NOT GENTLEMAN!
GIVE A LADY SPOILED THINGS AND U TAKE THE GOOD ONES!
Then he was shocked and i dun care him..

Sad bcos my bro blog again.. I read the posts.. And i cant believe wat he posted..
And bcos my father is so 烦 then i very worried abt his health!
He dun seems so well this few days..

烦 bcos of money!!! EVERYTHING NIDS MONEY!
My tuition fee haven pay yet.. And i dun wanna tuition bcos the fee is a bit too high and my rememdial lessons are too many until 5.30pm..I dun wanna tuition on Sat..
But at nite also too tired to go for tuition..
And then my father also owe some money and i try to save money and help him pay a bit..
I help him paid $40 for my tuition fee and I m now broke!

Tired is bcos! SKOOL!! wake too early and sleep too late..
Not even 8 hours! Then afternoon still nidda attend remedial lessons then my brain cannot focus!

More stories wif the photos...

Double rainbow(25/2/09)
I took 4 photos and this is the most clear photo that double rainbow can b seen..
And is so so nice.. then second rainbow is on top of the first.. The rainbow is on the newspaper.. It is over the whole SINGAPORE!

Top view of the buildings in redhill..(17/3/09)
I went to have a work exp of giving flyers from door to door..
Then it was fun! But I did not give all flyers =X My legs are ache-ing after the whole exp!

Rainbow in the evening..(21/3/09)
Saw it suddenly and took a photo of it.. After the photo is taken.. The rainbow disappeared..

Pei ting's birthday cake'09(16/2/09)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI TING!

The top one is mine and the bottom is pei's!(16/2/09)
These cakes were bought by our tuition teacher.. She was shocked when she saw the cakes!Then 2 were mine and 2 were hers..